~For John

When I say- I love you.

I don’t say it to save you.

                                                                                                                 -I say it to destroy myself-

The old self,

The restricted self,

And my intolerant self.

I say those words-

Not because of you,

                                                                                                         -I say it to awaken-

To be reborn,

Leaning on self acceptance,

For my ascension to my providence.


But it is because of you-

That I now glow from within from the light of stars.

                                                                                                   -And because of  you-

 I will arise as a warrior worthy of love.




Silent Venus

And when in silence,
I sit and think,
Worries forgotten,
And memories I thank.
I feel your warmth,
Still tug in my heart,
As Venus paints love,
While we are apart.
I know that soon,
when I go to sleep,
Safety I’ll find,
Dreams of you I will keep.



Gift from My Love Completed by kamillyonsiya

(Gift from My Love by kamillyonsiya on Deviant Art)



Oh mockingbird- why do you laugh,

With forlorn magic under your hat?

The universe spirals the wheel of spoils,

Yet your quills write love-songs, teased with coil.

Hide beneath your feathers, those rare rainy jewels.

They’re tiny glittering teardrops, of hopeful fairy dew.

Do you see me, or do you foretell my mimicking potential?

Of loving him forever,  for knowing him is consequential.

His elegant smile- opens my great fortress of shade.

And pulls forgotten blooms forward: creating abundance of wildflower glades.

He makes me fly with kind words, and not flattery.

Collecting twigs for his nest, I am his home, eternally.





I’m never not looking or waiting for you:


Bold crickets serenade the watching moon,

And I think of you.

Gentle breezes lift tiny curls on my crown,

And I feel your understanding touch.

The smell of the first heavy raindrops from a frantic summer storm,

And I taste the charged flavor of you.


You dance with all my unseen senses through nature,

And instinctively I open my lungs, my mind, and my heart.

Absorbing the tenderness of my emotion,

Swallowing your sentiment.

I no longer curse the subtle connections,

That tether us, not allowing desuetude of soul.


Come to me my love:

In animal song, in playful breeze and in savory rolling thunder.

Breathe into me inspiration.

Evoke and awaken forgotten connection,

Submerge me away with abstract hope ever so gently.


The warmth of the sun holds the golden glitter of our hearts,

That innocent children delight and color their worlds in.






He spoke my name in whispers,

With a simple blistering kiss.

Etching my soul to yearn,

Reaching our forgotten reminisce.


Eloquent of humanity,

Recognition of his blood.

Lip upon lip:

I knew it was him, the one that I loved.


Come to me, dream darling

Cross the bridge and awake!

Reunited incarnated souls;

We will save the world from hate.








My Reason

Tiny tingles,

At the heart.

Tumbling smooth,

Edges that dart.

Beginnings of smiles,

Owned since birth.

Knowing you,

My reason of mirth.

To be so happy,

Something so plain,

Finding connection

Fusing twain.

Excitement building,

You are the one.

Belief in hope,

Father of the sun.

For years it’s bloomed,

Without you near.

Growing stronger,

My love reveres.



Two-Stepping Twins

Hear me whisper curses,
Watch my lips run.
Catch my desperation,
Raking songs unsung.


Frustrations we celebrate,
Like the 4th of July.
Burn our ambition,
A spiteful nose alibi.


What a game of tactics,
Foreplay of the mind.
Respecting ingenuity,
Impressive masterminds.


Curiosity kills fur,
But keeps rapt attention.
Fascination’s sweet babies,
We’re stars shooting of ascension.


Complimentary magnets,
Dancing Yang and the Yin.
You dip and I’ll twirl,
Till we wake up in zen.



Candied heart

Buy me fun candy.

With secrets,

That only you can see.


Fill my belly with butterflies,

Who wink lullabies.

That exist for you and me.


Place forgotten memory:

Lovely seconds,

On shelves of pure gold


Forever to touch

My hand and heart,

My love is yours to enfold.








Lights Promise

Somehow finding myself colored in lights

From still holding onto your love, set inside me so tight

More intense faith than I have ever experienced

Someone greater than any cause, but in the dark mysterious

Letting go is not an option possible

Odds of failure click off astronomical

Thoughts bring you complete, happily forefront

Truth spoken, but tough softness is blunt

Everyday now I’m unable to surpress

Or my emotions even allowed respite, or  be repressed

Comfort happens and finds me to thrive

Still you linger here, only the physical deprived

With you here talking to me through so many signs

It proves my truth of enlightenment, and secures belief sublime

The bond that was sewn to connect us through the spaces between

Will withstand times hurts of separation, and will be my reprieve

I know I will hold your face gently in my hands

Patience and growth must happen first,  so we can start to understand