The phrase ‘TwinFlame’ had no meaning to me until a few weeks ago.
I stumbled over the word actually in a hashtag. It was framing a quote that showed up on my dashboard on Tumblr.
It was if it was speaking just to me at that moment of its discovery for my current life place.
At any other point in my life, I think I would have thought ‘awww how sweet, a quote written for lovers…<gag gag gag>’ I do think I’ve always been a hopeless romantic. Not in the sense that I thought I would find that fairy tale kind of love for myself, but in a I-love-to-fantasize kind of sense. I love all things frou-frou. They make me feel good. I AM the Hallmark Movie Channel queen! (Secret Guilty-Pleasure Confessions of a Hopeless Romantic 101- the future title to my love story! A bit wordy, isn’t it? lol) Give me sweet love stories and movies, I’m there and all about it with bells on! The sweetness takes the sharp edges off of reality sometimes.
Then I met John Bender a few years ago.
My world shifted slightly at first. So slightly I didn’t even realize how my world was changing, and how my world was incorporated with ‘him’. Or how my view of my world was transforming. With him I was laughing more. I was smiling more. And let me tell you,that is a feat! I am a laughter and I am always smiling even on the hard days, like today. He was awaking the little girl in me. He was showing me my innocence. He brightened my world with his light. If I never happen to cross paths with him ever again, I will always love him for that.
Even with his absence and him gone out of my life at the moment physically, I’m still one of those people who most of you will hate. I am an optimist. Not an optimistic in irrational beliefs. But a believer in that there is always something good that comes from everything- good and bad alike. Everything. Don’t get me wrong, I can be a complainer. I can throw a pity party with the best of them after a disappointment. But I can’t stay there long in the darkness of myself. It serves no one if I do. Maybe this is a flaw of mine, and maybe this is why I’m struggling with my hurt now in that I’m still not seeing a solution or an end to the solitude?
In my struggling to see the positive, I can see this is me fighting against what society has made all of us now- contemporary humans. We have morphed into thinking we always have to be in control to our destiny with no patience to wait for it. It’s a hard habit to break out of. The learning to letting go and just having faith that the Universe will provide…there’s definitely a learning curve going on here!
So back to that quote- it found #truth in me.
I see its wisdom, and I feel its faith. Letting the Universe ‘be’ without forcing its hand in things for myself and others is the right thing to do. Its the right thing to do, because what I seek will all be provided for me only when I am ready. For that matter, anything before its time and before we are ready for it, only makes life messy and unnecessarily complicated.
I do believe it will be okay. Is that faith or just knowledge, I’m not sure how to define it yet? But I do believe somethings and some situations, no matter how dire they seem, will find a way to overcome its obstacles and it will exist. Especially true love once it has recognized its other half, I believe nothing can stop it.